As far back as I can remember I was always profoundly interested in all things paranormal and supernatural. Now I consider myself both spiritual and metaphysical. My own definition of those is that the metaphysical is the unseen within the realm of matter and the spiritual is the unseen beyond the realm of matter.
.Also at a very early age, I spontaneously attained Self - Realization through deep samadhi, a wondrous, transcendental experience of Merger, Oneness with the All and All. My first recollection of sitting absorbed in the Absolute, is from the age of 5 or 6 years old. It was winter and I was visiting my grandmother at her farm at the edge of the forest. I was there by myself which was unusual, without the other kids, and my grandmother and I were sitting quietly at her kitchen table. We were both of us just looking out the window at the silent winter landscape. I think it was the only time that it was just she and I, normally there were always so many people around. I remember my mind and being merging into the Infinite Emptiness, the Supreme Peace, the expansiveness, the Eternal Void. It was like floating more and more in an extraordinary Peace and Silence and that it felt extraordinarily good, a well being that gradually expanded and deepened. The experience and feeling of it grew and grew and I was deeply enjoying it. Then suddenly my grandmother spoke, thinking we had been quiet both of us for too long and something ought to be said. I remember feeling really jolted back and wanted her not to say anything more, so that I could go back to floating in Space. So, not knowing what I could say to make her continue to be quiet, to make her understand, without beginning to talk myself, I said to her: "Be quiet. I'm thinking." She laughed and laughed and I never heard the end of it growing up.
I believe much of all my strange and mind bending mystical, spiritual and metaphysical experiences over the years came from the near death experience. It opened up the worlds to me, thinned the veils between dimensions and increased extrasensory perception tremendously. I became very intuitive, clairvoyant and clairaudient and aware of other realities, other worlds, spirit beings, the emotional and mental states and intentions of other people and, eventually, that all of creation is made up of energy first. Deeply aware of the multidimensional reality and the inner workings of all people ever since, and without a teacher, I grew up confused and withdrawn.
Growing up, I was still facinated with and on fire for all things paranormal. Then came a period, in my early adulthood, where I came across the New Age stuff and explored all things metaphysical. I came across (was led to) a metaphysical book store and began researching the unusual. I tried out everything just to have the experience. I explored everything I could on metaphysics and energy work, dimensions and spirit beings. I came across many classes and training programs, or maybe I should say, my angels directed my life so that I would come across what I needed and they inspired me to explore. I turned my attention to God and asked what my purpose was, why I was here, and then lost all control over my life, as I became powerfully directed towards healing work from that moment on. I met many amazing healers, some of whom offered training programs in energy work and all that is connected to that, that encouraged me to offer my experience and training in healing sessions with people. I reluctanctly entered onto that path and so my journey was in full swing. I didn't know at the time that the angels were directing everything in my life. It was a great and exciting time for me. I studied energy work and became a practitioner of energy healing and psychic mediumship and channelling. I found it very strange that this was what I was now doing, helping others and rearranging the lives of other people. It was very hard for me to accept that it was a part of my life's path and it was also intensly thrilling and profoundly satisfying at the same time.
I began to travel internationally, to continue to remember past lives and to continue to train and develop as a healer, a healing instrument. In time I experienced a need to divide the messages I received in the healing sessions with people from the healing sessions and began to offer spirit messages and mediumship as a separate service. Practicing past life regressions and energy work healing sessions with people taught me tremendous amounts about dimensional realities and other ways to use energy work; for space clearing and land clearing, empowerment and activation of purpose, relationship healing, boosting businesses and so much more. I began teaching groups and classes in Reiki, psychic development, Stargate meditations, silent meditations and women's empowerment salons.
I also "accidentally" happened upon another new experience; satsang and spiritual awakening. I came across spiritual teachers and without knowing what that was all about, came to Realize the Absolute immediately. Again. I was directed towards a spiritual teacher who directed my attention back to the Self - Realization and first stage of samadhi that I had experienced at the very early age of 5 (-ish). In satsang I endeavored to ask a question of the teacher and was lead immediately into Realizing the Absolute. It was astonishingly easy for me to understand where she wanted to lead my attention and I again found myself in the familiar Nothing / Void / Emptiness. I was wondering for many years why it had been so easy for me, until I recalled that I had been there often in my childhood and adolescence. I had dwelled so often in the spaciousness of the Great Silence growing up, that my father was very frustrated with me, thinking always that worldly accomplishments were the greatest and proudest thing. Nobody could see what was taking place with me and I knew nothing of it either. Growing up, there was no awareness of these things and no teacher or guide available. I was just thought of as perhaps lazy and a day dreamer. I just knew I was "different".
Soon after coming into the satsang world, I came to notice that a great transformation had begun. I understood that the glimpse into the Real opened a "door" in the mind that allowed an etheric kind of light to begin to flood my being. I noticed that a purification and transformation was taking place of the mental body, then of the emotional body, then of the physical body and then of my external life. The process took many years and was slow and intense. Everything transforming powerfully from the light that kept shining in. I didn't know it but I was also in the middle of a kundalini awakening that had started in 1993. It was all an extremely intense and turbulent time. In the late spring and early summer of 2001, I experienced what's called God - Union, when my whole aura's energetic structure collapsed and melted into the Universal grid. The Universal grid's awareness, consciousness, intelligence - but it's much more than that and something all together different - merged and swooped through "me", physically, cellularly. It was strange. I could hear it. From continued exploring and inner inquiery, I met a new spiritual teacher in 2001 who offered an energy transmission, shaktipat, that also supported an intense continued spiritual awakening, purification and transformation, leading eventually to the kundalini culmination, sahaja samadhi, Oneness Consciousness and full Enlightenment.
In 2002 the kundalini entered my heart chakra and activated the Divine Love golden orb. Incredible transformation of feeling and attitude followed. In the spring of 2007 the kundalini culminated in the crown chakra and activated the inherent, previously dormant Divine Light that resides there. This activation was explosive and thunderous and did not go by subtly or in any way unnoticed. And so my journey of chaos and intense restructuring was beginning to come to an end. I came to Sedona, AZ, to rest up from all the intensity, all the incredible and fantastic energy activations and awakenings I had experienced from the kundalini awakening and stages of samadhi (around Europe, in Hawai'i and Los Angeles). Here I spent the first two and a half years in stillness, quiet restfulness and rejuvenating, replennishing and restoring myself and my energies.
In the fall of 2009 my pituitary was activated and I suddenly entered sahaja samadhi, again a huge alteration in awareness, putting me instantaneously in permanent and everlasting Oneness consciousness, full Enlightenment. Now everything is different. I have peace and ecstatic bliss. My life unfolds perfectly without my resistance, mostly. I am free of the human suffering and human conditions, mostly. I feel such rapture and such Love and the whole world is beautiful, beautiful. That is now my permanent state of being, intense well being. If I experience anything outside of that, it is usually that I am affected by astrological events, which I am very sensitive to. The melting away of vasanas, personality tendencies, ego, has continued for a few years and I am less and less bothered by any of my own personal reactions and opinions. It has become a life of guided creativity and in every moment listening inwardly to what's next, constantly receiving direction from inner inspiration.
So, my story is a story of an unexpected spiritual journey that resulted from spontaneous Self - Realization, entering samadhi, at an early age, and a kundalini awakening journey that began in early '93 and ended in '07. This has taken me through Awakenings of all kinds; Self - Realization, God - Union / Merger, stages of samadhi, Divine Mother Consciousness, Divine Heart activation, the dance of the cobra, absorption into the Great Light, full Enlightenment when the kundalini entered the crown chakra and activated the Divine Light which then exploded outward like a supernova, pituitary activation, entering sahaja samadhi, Yoga - Union and a cellular / molecular / atomic rewiring and lighteneing.
The transformation that we are all in in these times of change, going into SatYuga, the Golden Age, will continue to show us all amazing things, tremendous things. And we are all going. We are all going into the New, into SatYuga, into the Golden Age. Some of us are here to assist and facilitate in this great leap forward in the Human evolution. My service has become the transmission of Shaktipat and Divine Grace that is now my primary energy work service.
Blessings to All.
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Camellia flower. My favorite.
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Grows well in the shade.